OTHERS ARE GREAT BUT YOU CAN BE GREATER

I used to look up to all these famous independent women who have done something in their life that has affected others in the most beautiful way. & then I remember that these women aren't born great. They started off small & kept pushing forward in life to become who they are now. Then I look at myself, if they can do it why can't I? I'm sure they faced hardships too & that pushed 'em even harder.
I got people commenting about me when I was at dinner saying how great my skin is tho I'm without make up on, how tiny my waistline is tho I don't work out much, bla bla bla. I was really flattered, people never get tired of receiving compliments, obviously. But what I'm trying to say is, yeah some people see me as an influence but I know they can definitely be GREATER. I haven't achieve anything in life so I shouldn't be looked up upon. My skin & my waistline don't pay my bills. I believe everybody can be greater, do something, be someone. The harder your hardships, the bigger your calling is in life. Don't just settle for being great, BE GREATER =]

I was studying & thinking of you got me stopped half way just writing down my thoughts (I don't get that everyday, you know *teasing* =p)
Even though you're not 24hours or 7days in a week by my side, I'd still be proud to have you with the littlest things that you do.
I love how I wake up in the middle of the night & you're close to me & when I move a bit, you still subconsciously move closer to hug me again even though you're dead asleep. I love it when sometimes you pat me on the head when I say things that doesn't make sense. I love how you stop being grumpy when I start hugging you. I love how you make me feel like a princess during special occasions & not pamper me too much all the time. I love it how you're the funniest, with the jellybean emotions you do just to make me laugh. I love it when you let me put make-up & remove blackheads from your face, you'll kiss me after that. I love how you leave random text messages to me tho you're either out with your mates or having a long day at work. I love it when you understand reasons I love to dress up most of the time & tell me how pretty I look. I appreciate how you're still with me after knowing how much of a bimbo & egghead myself can be. I appreciate it when some weekends you wanna bring me out tho your plans was just to stay home & lay on the couch all day long.

Now see baby boy, when we pray, God always answers us. It's either a yes, no, or WAIT. He knows exactly when you'll need something & what you're wishing for. All I know is that He'll definitely never take something away from you without replacing it with something better. I understand you're a man with the highest ambition & biggest mind, just don't ever give up what you're doing because I'm sure God will one day answer our prayers. Your life gets better & better, yes =) *hug*

I love you, I really do. It'll be a forever kind of thing, unless we actually try to stay committed, falling hard for each other everyday until we both grow reaching the peak of both our career. We can always choose to keep our hopes up, yet our problems down low, yet in every relationship, there's always an up & down kind of thing. I'll be here. If we're committed & makes forever, you'll definitely be the 2nd person to be an impact to my life after my family. I love you my mate =)

When someone puts an effort into the conversation, I feel special, worth it & appreciated. Because it actually makes me feel that I'm wanted & worth talking to.

The type of guy that pulls you closer when you try to walk away, the guy that comforts you when you cry, the guy that never tells you to leave no matter how mad & angry he is, the type of guy who lifts up your chin & kisses gently. That guy is *drools*

She'll sneak glimpses of you so she won't get caught staring but you'll notice it anyway. She'll wait for you to start the conversation & as soon as you start one, she won't ever wanna stop talking to you. She'll hit, nibble, punch & bite you playfully. She'll be mean to you specially, because she wants you to know that you'll chase if she leaves. I'm the she & youknowwhoyouare ;)

I'm definitely not the best person to turn to when you have problems. Sometimes, I won't know the right words to say or how to make you feel better. But I'll always be here whether you like it or not. I won't leave just because it's hard. I'll sit still, listen & offer you a shoulder to cry on because honestly, that's the only thing I'm capable of doing. This is the promise I know I won't break.

I totally can't stand being around someone who is boring all the time, especially when I'm that type of person who likes to play & mess around, not all the time but rather fun. Typical conversations between two people really just bore to death sometimes. I find myself more clingy with people who knows how to spark up a conversation & keep me entertained *likeaboss*, but at the same time they know when to stop & be serious when needed. I'm just blessed to have wonderful friends around me, not much but a few who genuinely cares? I'm blessed.

I sense a bad birthday in exactly 14days time ='(

Best to describe what I'm feeling right now. I'm feeling gross, sick, fat, ugly, depressed, afraid, annoyed, forgotten, abandoned, discouraged, rejected, unwanted, misunderstood, judged, labeled worthless, insecure & misled.

It's getting harder & harder to keep my plastic smile everyday =(

Love isn't perfect, we have our bad days, drive each other crazy & have disagreements sometimes. But when a relationship between two people goes bad, then sometimes love really isn't enough.

Sometimes it hits myself that the person that I adore much might not feel the same for myself, hurts me in any way but sometimes I'm just completely blessed that I have that significant other who is entirely wise enough to think about the future, to be able to work on his two feet but still, loves me as much.

Letting go of someone you love of course, it's really painful. But it takes yourself to do what's best for you & them. Love can be as easy as holding hand & kissing someone good night but it can also be as hard as walking away knowing that part of your heart beats for them.

I want to tell you how I feel. I want to share with you everything. I want you to know so I can let this burden off my chest. Now I'm starting to get scared. Scared of what you'll think. Scared of being pain. Scared of rejection.

I'm reminded that sometimes no matter how much you love someone, it doesn't make up for how much they hurt you, or love you in return. & sometimes no matter how much they love you, they're gonna fuck up & make mistakes. Sometimes people just don't make the right decisions, even parents.