so stoooooooooooooopiddddd!

imma blog about somethin tht made me really furious todaeeee~

it's not really a big deal thou~

BUT i got really damn friggin furious over it~

ohwell. there's something tht i dont really understand and i need to get it right. is it i am too cerewet or what?? ohwell. people people. i will just let you guys judge about this

it was just now when i offered someone cake tht i baked with my own effort for my own birthday. and before i offered, i asked tht someone>>>got present for my birthday not?? and tht someone was like>> owh~a kiss**making tht frigging disgustin kissing mouth. and my reaction was wth..no means no nah~no need to all tht kinda disgusting stuff. aft tht, i offered tht someone those cakes.

tht someone's reaction>>> oh nevermind lahhhhh~i full ady

that was the part my heart burn burn burn burn!

i replied>> eh, you didnt gimme present o show any sincerity for my bday is enough bad for me.

now tht i offered you cakes tht i baked my own you didnt bagi muka??

tht someone kept quiet

aft like 30 mins, my heart got soft and melted and i offered tht someone the cake again

her reaction>>> errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr~(doubting want to eat or not,scare my cake got effing

shit inside

she took a piece of tht cake and said "too much milk lahh"

so, is it tht i am making things big orrr tht someone really so kurang ajar??:x

it's really hard for me to forgive and forget in this case~

because tht someone is a long long friend and accompanion of mine

just tht recently she changed~

i dont know how

but i dun seemed to know her like i used to

but in some case, i guess i would just prefer to keep quiet because i had learnt smth really important = i have no right to judge people like tht, only the god does.

saying the truth, i am not happy. even thou it was my bday or anything near to tht. i got hurt for so many things. my heart just get hurt time to time.

i'm soooo gonna die if i suffer like this everyday.

i was crying the whole night :( and tonight imma do the same.

lonely

i have a problem sleeping

it might be imsomnia or i dontknow whattttt

it is making me really really exhausted. i'm feeling tired and hopeless.

tht just made a problem to my study in midnight mission thingy

**sobs** :'(

currently i could describe myself >>> LONELY + MISERABLE

please come back. you know who i meant ):

just got up after i revise on biology which put me into sleep. and i know i need to face lonelinesssssssssss AGAIN=.= working my ass off weyyy~T.T

SPM~i am coming for you

xoxo,

sook yee

**my shweeeet seventeen**

it made made much difference to be a 'grown up' seventeen~

i learnt to handle or change something better than i used to,

i could bear with everything tht come on my way,

i used to think tht i was the only one always making mistakes,

the only thing i can do is blaming myself for everything tht happens,

BUT now i know..it's not me all the time,

It has always been it.

pleasing people, making them happy and doing things for both own good,

i feel great being tht way and doing that,

because i knew,

i CHANGED to be better.

whoopsie:)

today=happy day=good day=antidiet day=makan puas puas day=wonderful day=

S00K YEE RULE THE WORLD DAY^0^

imma gooooooood girl todae~!!!!



lol. i was just exaggerating. it's just a normal simple day tht i go through like every single day.
nth much to be mentioned about.



yesterday night, i received the greatest gift ever. i mean like you know. the earliest and the biggest and the greatest gift tht i had received so far. i was in a blend of expressions the moment i received tht gift. it was like malu malu, happy but keep myself steady at the same time, thankful(like i really need to said thank you so so so so many times). i was... stunt for a moment..it's really a sweet present and tht present made me smile non-stop till now:)

cute right?thanks again again and again^^

and i am going out with all the special people tht make my life happy tonight. since tht i could not afford to belanja them with big expensive meals(due to my 'boros' attitude and my shopaholic blood genes in me:p) thus, i decided to bake a really sincere and especially tasty cake for them.

A CHOCOLATE GANACHE CREAM CAKE!!!

jeez :s

it sounded so pro right??actually from the recipe it looked really pro nah~but because it's my first time for chocolate cake. so,the result turned out to be just like a normal choc cake. for a beginner, OK LAH TU**ngek**

i started off with my baking mission about 10 and i finished everything at almost 2a.m

i made it all alone~UNTILLL MY PARENTS ALL BLAH GO TO BED, TILL THE LIVING ROOM OUTSIDE DARK DARK

and i'm still in the kitchen doing the cake

am sure you all are curious wht took me so long to bake it rite?? well..

• i need to spin spin spin tht cuuutee hand mixer of mine to bake the chocolate sponge cake
• the choc sponge cake need to be baked in the oven for about an hour
• started off with the whipped cream
• whisk the whipped cream from kinda "liquid like" to solid solid icing
• melt the choc in the pan with milk and butter and leave it to cool for an hour
• after the sponge cake is done, it is needed to be cool on the baking tray before it is cut into half
• the melted cooking choc(cooled) is mixed with the whipped cream and here we go~spin spin spin spin~becum "choc ganache cream"
• the choc ganache cream is put between the cake(cut into half)
• LASTLY>.<>
• chilled in the fridge overnight
• done:)

i made it all by myself weyy>.<

all the hard work and sweat in tht cake(about the sweat,it was a joke(: )

i almost had a fever , the oven is friggin hot.

But i had to check on it once a while to make sure it's not overdone thou.

i still look okay before i started off baking

the end product..puhlease tell me it's awesome@.@

yummylicious~!mhmmm..

tadaaaa~~~!my choc with ganache cream cake

**AFTER**am not okay but..gonna be okay..i suppose..ohwell:)

P/S: pls pls pls tell me i am not suck at baking :x

The best about tonight is tht we're no fighting

i knew tht i had been really selfish and foolish all along. SELFISH. why would tht be?? i always think tht i needed someone by my side always cz i am lonely and never anyone would bother to care bout me. so, i always bug your life cz you're the only one who always stay by my side. and i got really used to tht the past 2 years. now i had to choose to let go. slowly i let you go. i knew tht you needed your own space to grow up. FOOLISH. how? my mind were always thinking tht i am the BESTEST gf of all. cz i like did so much things for you. but actually. i never even reach till the point of a GOOD ACCOMPANION. i am just mad at myself.

BUT YET i chose to be selfish.

i won't ever let you leave me..
and don't ever tell me i would make it on my own..
cz everything in me will die..if you leave..
sometimes when i stare at you without you noticing..
i would be amazed how i could sweep you off from all the other girls..
cz i am really thankful to have you..
i will do better. cz i know i can do it better..

lovey lovey, sook yee~

what i learnt

appreciate the chance you were given to be that special someone's other half. and if u don't they will just leave far far away from you. you might not regret it now but u will DEFINITELY later on. And of all the things, that's what i learnt when i learn to grow up. I learn to love and take care of people around me. I tend to do something i never did before. And tears tend to drip without realizing your feelings to that someone is actually so deep-UNTIL THIS FAR-

TODAY~i see tht special someone got hurt and i know tht deep down in tht someone's heart. suffer and suffocating in air is taking place. And i know tht someone's heart is filled with black clouds. but me?? i could just stay here and be a fool doing nothing**i hate myself for tht**>.<
I know it would be impossible for me to clear all those black clouds in tht someone's heart. And impossible i could ever do tht. i am neither anyone nor God. but every single day, i would pray hard for tht special someone. Pray tht all those black clouds would just fade away. I hoped tht i could be the one to brighten up those clouds but today i learnt. i can't and i never will.

am just nothing

dear special someone <3,
never ever look back at your mistakes but learn from them...
there is no point being stuck in the past as this wil paralyze your progress of moving on to the future..
i would always be at your and accompany you through every path tht you take no matter how hard it would be..
And trust me..

buko pose together gether

keke~sorry zack...i was just thinking tht pose was quite.............'cute'??

love you~you awiz make me laugh..

and THANK YOU for breaking my all my pink bottle for 3 times (:

u left me....



when i am in tears.....


heart=brokeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....

buka puase:)

the whole class : sook yee...pkai eh bju kurung biler buka puase

me : no way!i am not gonna do that...bju kebaya maybe la..damn hot!:)

the whole class : pkai la..klu sook pkai bju kebaya msti comeyyyy^^pkai tudung lgi comel

me : wth??no no:p

watch out i've seen that type before~that girl is so dangerous......that girl is a bad girl~!

ngek~!**

back back back~

stuck in schooolllllllllll>.<

O-M-G!i am currently lost...lost from the world...lost from effing everything...

i am just so in to books and books and just books....ahak~!puasa too:)

and now that i had finished my trialsss....i am on the go to prepare for the greatest war ever~

i am so so lost till that i didn't know any single information about the upcoming lcds annual dinner weyyy~-.-

FYI...i am not a superwoman...haha~i cant do everything at one time...

and talking about issues of cheating in examsss..

i just got so damn fed up of all that..

i admitted...i did cheat in exam when i was at the tender age of form4

when i started taking all those effing science killer subssss...

now??puh-lease

i am a grown up~

cheat for exams??yea.....if u cheat..of course u'll get higher than what u shud get...

but if u cheat and u dont score???that 1 really confirm dumb dumb dumb nah~

with all the notes in your bare hands during exams....with everything that u had...

and u dont score???i am just speechless about people like that...

for 3 weeks in trials i had to face people like that...and i damn tired of all kind of stories..

so....i just keep my mouth shut up tight:x

hmmm..let me recall...i did spent wonderful days of mine with xiaobaby..

but it's just for a moment..

then now...we are far again..

i remember when he sent me to school.......really gave me affection and support me for my exams....i had gone through that with him...

i remember when he split water on me in the public and i got so mad...

i remember the tears i drip when the moment he is leaving and i knew we are gonna be far again...

i remember those hard work...waking up at 5am...just to make him the greatest loviest bfast he ever had~

i remember every single moment when he's being sweetttt.....and the moment he made me mad....

i rememver all that clearly in my mind...

all those moments just passed like that...

now that i am all alone again...

ngek~!my current hobby now is baking cakes and making desserts...

since daddy had bought me a brand new oven:)

p/s:jia yun,i dont need to borrow your oven dy!thx babe...^^

off~

-s00ky33-