You can tell me there's nobody else
but i feel it..i know there's chicks all around you
You can tell me that you're home by yourself
but i see it that you're hanging around and i am such a fool to be lied by you
You can look into my eyes
And pretend all you want
But I know
I know your love is just a lie
It's nothing but a lie
you would never tell me anything
you would lie lie lie and lie to me
lie to cover ur fucking ass!
but one thing..u wanna fucking lie is your problem
u lie to cover ur ass is fine
but don't get me involved in your lies
we ain't 7 years old anymore...stop poiting fingers at other people
now i realise
behind your mask
is a fucking shit that bully girls especially the one closest to you~
now i realise...you were just illusion

You look so innocent and u were the best for me
But the guilt in your voice gives you away
Yeah... you know what I mean
How does it feel when you kiss me
When you know that I trust you? but actually all along that u were lying to me and hiding so many things from me?
And do you think about me when she fucks you?
And could you be more obscene?
you said before i am not like what other think
but u were the same
same with everyone else that thinks i love to fuck guys like a horny bitch!
you can hide behind your stories but don't fucking take me for a fool~!


So don't try to say you're sorry
Or try to make it right..make our relationship right
And don't waste your breath
Because it's too late, it's too late

louis liong ming huei and ong sook yee are officially seperated

cRazY??

i'm asking myself
am i kinda having hysteria o wat??
yesterday i was really sick in school but i told myself that i can
i could just stay in school and pay full attention then i don't need to kinda re-revise again at home
when the clock strike 12p.m
ohhhh~missie sook yee couldn't stand anymore
my head just went down and i slept on the table
all the way till school's over

went back home
damn hungry!:(
u don't like it when i am hungry
haha~sook yee get mad when she's hungry
i didn't eat anything since 6 in the morning till 2
reached home about 2.30
raining cats and dogs the moment i stepped in the door~
ran ran ran all the way to the balcony to take back the clothes
sook yee's all wettttttttttttttttttttttttt!in her pinafore
my hair's all wet...my pinafore??worseeeeee
i'm like one of the tsunami victims~yet..i never bother to dry up myself
**hopeless**

done!fuhhhhhhhhhhhh~
i changed and i put my school baggie at the right position
and i went into the kitchen
.....

wat??!
no food??i called my mum and she said she was too busy~
i cried!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
badly~~i feel like i'm really having mental problems now~
i shouted alone in my house
i were just so stresses out~
i don't know why i shouted
i'm like a mad girl...shout shout shout and shout...till neighbour could hear me i think
i am not exaggerating!:( but i really did that..i don't know why
i just couldn't control myself
and i cried like a baby~indeed

am i?am i really having mental problems??
with all the examsssssssssssss and sick and quarreling and struggling to be thin and
u noe what..there's just so many things going on in my life right now~
and i never felt this insane thing in me before~i don't know what's wrong with me
i think i know this little thing in me that's really crazy..i am hyperactive and super talkative at times but if i don't stay moving somehow..i will fall asleep and if i don't keep myself talking..i'll get moodythat's what i know about me...or am i talking crap??tootttttttttt~
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btw~i'm really thankful that i am still alive here
**pats**
chemistry tuition ysterday night was going great
sick but paying damn freaking full atention~

and i didn't go to school today
gave up~
hey sick,i can't fight u u bloody sick...stop torturing me:(

i'm thinking of him again
I'm thinking of him again..i miss everything of him,every moment with him
he just like a drug to me, he makes me feel good ,initially ,but after the effect wears off, i feel bad afterwards
But i just can't help myself
I'm so lonely and unhappy nowadays
i just want to feel love again
And he was the only guy who ever made me feel special..
I know i’ve shouldn’t have watched love dramas

it reminds me of him, miss those days together ,whenever i travel to his place, he will definitely bring me happiness,we joked ,we laughed and lots more
I miss him
I miss his baby scent
I miss his hair
I miss his skin
I miss his lips
I miss his hands
I miss the way he would look at me
I miss the times he would tell me how beautiful I looked or how great I looked
I miss the way he touched my hand
I miss the way he hug me tight
I missed his wet kisses on my lips..
but still~you would never tell me everything
you would never feel bad when we quarrel
you would never think of me
i know i hate you~but i still love u..aiz


arghh!! I’m out of my mind
I am so incredibly lonely
Words cannot even begin to describe how lonely I am
I was listening"bye bye" in bed and thinking about how lonely I am
And I’m starting to question why I don’t have someone special with me
I have no one to hug
I have no one to kiss
I have no one to hold
I want that more than anything
I want that so much that it’s starting to really hurt….


i am D-E-P-R-E-S-S-E-D

camwhoring momentssssssss~

today~
great day i guess~
the motivation camp thingy
**tired**
it's a long hour camp which is from 8 to 5

there's smth interesting that i saw yesterday
smth that i had never seen before:)
there's a guy in my ttn place~
he wore a black t shirt written
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my ambition is to satisfy my woman,buy her diamond, big chouse, sport car etc
my money belongs to her and her money belongs to herself

i was thinking!
damn!
:p
haha~everyone in tuition kept reading those wordssss
and i was like

shirt oni ma!haiyo:p
doesn't prove anything la wei
lolz

*~*fun day*~*

oh.......yesterday the school made an announcement that today is gonna be a hari koperasi for our school....me and sapna planned not to came to school actually~cz we''ll be at the assembly place and sun bath till we get dark~!so no way!
haha~then wen yesterday i went into the van~

me:tmr u not coming to school rite??
syeh ren: y not??we're studying la~
me:really??ok ok:)i'll be a good student for just a day then:)

oh~and i actually went to school today
i didn't inform sapna that i am coming to school~keke~guees what?i sayang my credit la wei~
and as i would expect i will be all alone in the class with the guys today cz sapna is absent

it was raining cats and dogs
untilllllllllllllllll this morning
cool man!and the hari koperasi thingy is cancelled this morning~
lolzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

then here i go~
spent time with my other girl friends as i don't want xiaobaby to get mad me with guyssss
my cool malay gangies^^
i love ninaaaaaa!goshhhhhhhhhhhhhh~

today's great!
we play quiz quiz test when est........jeeeeeeee!my group almost get free bfast>.<
lastly...........both of the groups got drawwwwwwwwww
then when physics we learnt electromagnetism
the experiment was really fun!
sook yee likey likey:)

that's all for today~
it's 4.15 now.....gotta get ready for my dragging tuition till nite~
**prepare my brains**
chaozzzzzzzz

owh!xiaobaby~i love u:)
don't ever try to quarrel with me again!huh!

lovey lovey,sook yee

this is ninaaaaaaaaaaaaa~miss fabregasssss~love her^^
her without specs...much better rite??i think the same:p

m0ral day=do good things:)

ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww~!i am forced to do that>.<

ahak!all the hands ka ka cau cau there

xiaobaby and studies**f0cussss**

**yesterday**
it was a really depressing day for me...i just couldn't think ,couldn't function well, my mind is just full of everything...
let me count..............................trial in on august
time just flies so damn fast that it's already the end of june now
i have only about a month to strive for my trial
to work really really hard
to give one last shot for everything
**A MONTH**
i can't afford to get lazy anymore...or else.....there'll be no 2nd chance for me

a month=31days
10 subjects
history= 17 chaptersssssssss
biology=14chapterssssssssss
addmaths-exercises everyday
and bla bla bla~
i had so many things to work on
aiz....xiaobaby,can pls don't quarrel with me anymore??
i really beg u pls
i really need to get into government places after spm
or else i have no where to go anymore~damn it>.<

mummy said:u better try your very best to get good result and go into local u
i can't afford to pay for your further studies anymore
me :but............why u help sis to pay so much every single sem she took~!
she didn't even bother about spm or took any effort to achieve good results in it..
and now she's having fun!everyday!but y??y me?y must i achieve good result?
mummy :your sister is kinda slow....couldn't blame her also...but u r diff...u can do it....
so that's y.......counting on u...if u didn't study properly....go work only la...no money
want to help u dy

that's what~
life~
is always unfair i can say~
i really gotta study really hard~
just a few months more and i would be free~!free free and free!F-R-E-E

what i hope now is just that i can peacefully go on with my studies and xiaobaby in my life
that's the two things in my mind now~
nth else
i hust hope that u will be at my side and support me~
until that moment when i feel like giving up....u will hold me
and encourage me
and be the only one with me
that's all
i don't expect to just quarrel with u every single day
i don't wanna make myself hate to sms or call u everyday
pls..................be the one who i really need not wanna ignore or get far from
be the one i would thank if i get great results
be the one in my life and EVERYTHING:(
pls................for once i beg u again and again
pls
i don't wanna lose my life
i don't wanna lose my studies opportunity
i don't wanna lose to my daddy and mummy
i don't want~T.T

before go to school~~~~~~~~

can c??even my face so depressing

~~~~~~~~~~diet~~~~~~~~~~

today is the diet day~!

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
starting from tmr i gotta clip my hair up to school~
teacher warn all the girly students not to leave any fringe in front
>.
forgetful me....................ish ish!

i am off off to get some sleep
lack of sleep
time to oioiiiiiiiii lu~bed......i am coming**=.=**
and revise like mad shit
chaossssssss:)

hold me close and

never let me go

promise me that~

life goes on~

love,s00ky33

deng denggggggggggggggggggg~!

i hereby promote this latest pic of him~
haha~

nice right nice right??:p
i am so happy when i get to see this pic of him~
hmmmmmm...miss him damn muchieeeeeeeeeeee lu~
sorry yea xiaobaby~
don't mad at me for posting this at my bloggie:x

s00ky33 l0vesSs hEr b0yfrIenD <3

i love him~
wanna noe why?

cz he's gorgeous,hot and cute at the same time
cz he's nothing the same with all the guys that i had ever met
cz he's so diff
cz he's really good to me
cz he really concern about me
cz he really sayang me and treat me really good
cz he's always there for me
cz i got the feeling of sadnees seeing him sad which i never had before
cz i would cry and smile so much for him
cz i would do everything for him even it's hard or even i wouldn't do it for myself
cz he's just the most adorable thing ever
cz he's really protective over me
cz he teaches me everything about life
cz he could spend so much for me(although he's quite a 'jimat' guy)
cz i could feel it in my heart that in everything i do,he's my number 1
cz he's the one with me through all my ups and downs
cz he can make me only see him alone and ignore all the guys around me
cz he can let me be awake all night worrying about himwhen he's sick
cz he really can change me into a whole new diff person
haha~
and of course many many more that's personal:)
this is the world of only both of us:x

owh owh!
okay okay okay~
i admit
overall~
i love him~
cz
he's cute!
and another thing
he can make me not spend!that's the thing!
he teaches me together gether 'jimat' with him:)
i think if we marry,we''ll have a nice family~
oh ya~i love him cz he can change my mind to have babies in future(i don't plan to have any before i met him) :x
oh no!sook yee!stop dreaming**knock knock head**:x
haha:) that made me wouldn't fall in love again
this is my last and forever~

owh~how shweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeettttt am i:)

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr~~~~~

it's 9p.m

been lying down on my bed for past 1 hour.
i am just so lazy lazy lazy that i am really just sick of bio.
nvm...i am happy tht i finished revising one chapter of bio...


yay:)


i managed to do it:)after all tht hard work.....
**pat on the head**
cz xiaobaby not here to really support me by patting my hard after all this hard work





yay!
i did it~!
proud of myself
even if i can just survive after reading and (understanding) a page of bio:p

an ugly picta of mine...

too bored

just dream dream and dream all the wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy^^!

BrEaThLeSs^^

i just admire shayne ward so much~
he's just a really great guy with great voice and great sense of feelings~
so romantic~
i never fail to get bored even i listen to his songs for more than a hundred times~!
how i wish that a guy come telling me that i am tht best for him
with beautiful lyrics~
song by him............................................................................romantic~~~~~

If our love was a fairy tale
I would charge in and rescue you
On a yacht baby we would sail
To an island where we'd say I do
And if we had babies they would look like you
It'd be so beautiful if that came true
You don't even know how very special you are

You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can't believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me
Breathless

And if our love was a story book
We would meet on the very first page
The last chapter would be about
How I'm thankful for the life we've made
And if we had babies they would have your eyes
I would fall deeper watching you give life
You don't even know how very special you are

You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can't believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me
Breathless

You must have been sent from heaven to earth to change me
You're like an angel
The thing that I feel is stronger than love believe me
You're something special
I only hope that I'll one day deserve what you've given me
But all I can do is try
Every day of my life

You leave me breathless
You're everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can't believe that you're mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you're leaving me
Breathless

n0 u hang uP

You got my attention at hello
We had this connection that wouldn’t let go
There was something sexy ‘bout your voice
Anything you say makes a beautiful noise
And now we break up to make up right away
Just an excuse to lay in bed all day
I know that this thing we have won't ever change
And that’s why I have the confidence to say

A lot of girls are sexy
but you know how to use it
You can keep me up on the phone all night
We say lets hang up on 3 but we don’t ever do it
Aint it crazy how after all this time
We got that you hang up no you hang up kinda love
We got that you hang up no you hang up kinda love

Every time you call me, I wont lie
I still get the goosebumps I felt the first time
That I saw you walk into a room
Girl you hand me hooked on that beautiful view
And now we break up to make up right away
Just an excuse to lay in bed all day
I know that this thing we have wont ever change
And that’s why I have the confidence to say

And baby you still know just how to Blow my mind
After everything that we’ve been through
It still feels right
And I know, that I can’t Picture living my life without you

**dEpReSSeD**

bio~
reli just kills me~
i just try~
really hard
i definitely wouldn't dissapoint u xiaobaby~
and definitely wouldn't give up~
i am telling u mummy daddy!
just wait and see!i will prove it!i can>.<
prove that u both are wrong about me!

i've got moral project to be done~
got so many damn bio reports to be rushed~
and so many form syllabus that i need to cover my trial in august~
homeworks homeworks homeworks~~~~~~~~~
everything in my life is just killing me right now!

and xiaobaby is sick~
cant study peacefully~just so worried~
take care yea xiaobaby~
even though that i am not at ur side
love you~

**s00ky33 is dying soon**

sook yee is still alive after 2hours of bio~**

kiss kiss for xiaobaby~!mwah!:)

thank god i am still alive~haha~

just came back from the mccp~which meant majlis cakna cemerlang...........pendidikan i guess??
mummy went to school really early~about 10.30~and we waited so damn freaking long there cz y?
aiz~my class teacher keep talking and talking to the parents
even my mummy that nags so much also say her cheong hei like old lady~
waited about 15mins.....or maybe 20..........and finally~
it's our turn~

mummy look at my results
BM-okay
PHYSICS-improved a lot
BI-okay
CHEMISTRY-improved
MM-okay
EST-good
MT-okay okay la
MORAL-good
SEJ-can be improved


ehem.......................
this is when the pain began~
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BIOLOGY-E8~!
i observed mummy's eyes and when she looked at that marks
ahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~!
i knew it was judgement day~
my teacher keep telling mummy that i talk a lot in her class
and i am not paying attention at all~
and last but not least............i never ever ask her question~
since the first day she teaches me
oh~she should just ask herself why~her teaching skill........................................................:(
i don't want to comment so much nah~
but i just hate bio~
and the main reason is cz of her i guess~

well...........mummy didn't get mad when the teacher said all those negative stuf about me
cz...........she knows that i am a really talkative person and every single year she hear the same thing:) so it's not a shocking thing for her though^^

but mummy ask me to study hard from now onwards~
i really wanna prove to her that i can do it~
and at the same time i don't want to dissapoint her~
so...........................................
i gotta work my tails off like mad dog~
i gotta try my best,do my best and work things out~

the worst thing is from now onwards~
i gotta really pay attention in bio class and not even blink for a sec when the teacher is teaching~
i noe.............her teaching skill are bad though~
but.................i know that she advices me for my own good~

work work work~
hard hard hard~
bio bio bio~>.<
straight a's straight a's straight a's~!

back and ready~

my daddy is back in kt~

jie went to penang for her practical already~

xiaobaby went back to kl to continue his studies there~

everyone is back and ready~

sorry daddy for pulling that sour face to you yesterday although u bought me so many stuff to make me happy~

i am just moodless~

aiz~no more spending time with xiaobaby and my sis~

but daddy mummy i still love y'all~

my craziest sis ever~!miss her so much~

she's not gonna be back after 6months of practical in penang~

all the crazy ppl around me that made me really smile left me~

noone at my side to cope with me and do everything with me~

i love u daddyyyyyyyyy~~^^

yesterday was father's day~

i almost forgotten and i was mourning ar the window in my class till i rmb.....

it was father's day~

so i took out my phone and send my daddy a really lovely text which can make him into tears

haha~wel....ok ok i am exaggerating a little

yesterday was father's day and also the day that daddy was coming back from china~

he went china and hubjai for about 6days o mayb a week like that

i didn't really give him any gifts for that special day~

instead..........

he bought me really great stuff from there~

i loveeeeeeeee everything he gave

thanks daddy~!

i noe u love me:)

daddy bought me nokia 5310 xpress music phone

cj7 doll~not only 1...many many of them^^

he also bought me really cute pjamas there and a few t shirts and also chocolates~!my fav!

i likey i likey:p

my forever young daddy~!i love u~!

**crushhhhhh~~!**

You know everything that I'm afraid of
You do everything i wish i did
Everybody wants you, everybody loves you
I know i should tell you how i fell
I wish everyone would disappear
Every time time you call me, I'm too scared to be me
And I'm too shy to say
Ooh, I got a crush on you
I hope you feel the way that i do
I get a rushWhen I'm with you
Ooh, I've got a crush on you
A crush on you

You know, I'm the one that you can talk to
And sometimes you tell me thing that i don't want to know
I just want to hold you
And you say exactly how you feel about her
And I wonder, could you ever think of me that way
Ooh, I got a crush on you
I hope you feel the way that i do
I get a rushWhen I'm with you
Ooh, I've got a crush on you
A crush on you

Ooh, I wish i could tell somebody
But there's no one to talk to, nobody knows
I've got a crush on you
A crush on you, I got a crush

You say everything that no one says
But i feel everything that you're afraid to feel
I will always want you, I will always love you
I've got a crush...

**ReAdY......SeT aNd g0~~~**

off everyone to cheneh for summer camp this morning~
haha~well~i am not sad for not going cz most important to me is my xiaobaby is coming back~
ignore everything's that on my way~
:)

whole day in school i am actually listening to the teachers that attended my class~
listened carefully to every single words they uttered~
haha~cz my gangiesssss not here~
it's a good things actually~
i had learn many things today:p
but i gotta go toilet alone,recess alone,sit alone.....lonely lu~
but it's okie though

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaha~!
waiting for tmr to reach~~~~~~~~~~lalalalalala~**

n0 piCtASssssssssss~!haha~
dun wan ppl comment banyak banyak~keke~!
(one of them is the unknown guy at my chat box=xiaobaby -.-)

let me start this~
school_______bad!
teachers________bad!
everything____bad!

arghhhhhh~i am starting to really hate school~
school is not like school anymore~
trying to get what i meant??
it's simple_____hmmm....no more schooly feelings in me~

today my biology teacher=my class teacher came in my class~
2 periodsssss....let me repeat that...2 periods=1 hour and 10 mins
she said that students nowadays always come in to disturb her class for curicullum activities
they come in and said ''saya nak jumpa bla bla bla''
and she blamed those students for no let her finishing her syllabus by the end of the month
wth!she herself spend her whole damn period lecturing about her grandson and talking all her granny stories!
i am really damn pissed off and really start to hate school!
tell u what~!i cnt achieve good results if she keep on doing tht in class

hey jimmy~!
dun wori~i already got the cloth for you~:)
haha!with pink colour lu~!
and really sorry jia yun tht i couldn't make it for summer camp~
i am really sorry~have fun there without me:)
well~i noe tht will be kinda impossible and u will miss me
but....just try to enjoy^^

and i saw the latest dresses out from dolce & gabanna!owh owh~!and mng topssss:)
it's summer collection 2008
keke~hope my bday come soon and ppl will be kind enough to get it for me:)
sori for being a little thick face~thick face sook yee when it comes to present^^

it's been a long time that i didn't go for shopping~
i am gonna get crazy soon*****************!
study study study till kulat jor>.<

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaha!
i forgotten to say i love u xiaobaby~!
cant help myself saying tht every single day!
oops~i am being thick face here again~:x
haha~maybe since that 'incident' he start to love and sayang me more:)
thank him for not arguing and quarelling with me these few days!
goshhhhhh~!haha

timessss uppppp~!it's time to smile sweetly~!**colourful side of my life**

it's been a hard time for me~for us~but nowwwwwwwwwww~~
deng denggggggggggggggggggggg~!
it's time for me to smile again~!
it's time for the bubbly sook yee to be back again~!

i'm back i'm back i'm back~
lalalalalalalalalalalalala~~~~~~~~~~~~~!
haha~!
oopsie~i am forgetting that i am writing my bloggie^^
those days were really so hard for me though~
all the unwanted pieces of myself~the break ups happening~losing the most important person in my life~
i think everything has went back how it used to be~
the time had come i guess~
i am not really that sure cz i am doubting everything~
everything good in my life~
i am always doubting everything about myself~
not much of confidence and very self obsessed type~
arghhhhhhhhh~!just wish my life will be positive and great always~

these days,the sad sorrow miserable days of mine had gone
smile:)
xiaobaby,thanks for letting me noe that u wont let me go~
thanks for letting me noe how much u ever love me till that u could call me for so long(which i noe u never do) when i am sad~when u noe we might be seperated~i love you and looking forward for you coming back~

i really wanna apologize to jimmy~!sorry sorry and sorry for spoiling your summer camp plans ya~didn't mean to~but......ehem.......i noe nah u merajuk dy~cz this morning when i told u that i am not going for the summer camp u were like>>>''no need to go for the meeting later la,u not invloved what'' and i was like>>>''ok lo"
u were making ur scary face again~!grandpa grandpa~!

dear friends,thanks for supporting me
thanks for letting me noe i had really great friends around me~
thanks for just being great and kind ppl~!
love y'all!

and dear chung,i really thank and owe u so much!
i don't know y but i just thank u~
things are going fine now~my lovely friend~!

those dramasssssssssssssssssss~
bye bye~
oh ya~and i met the group of form 5 gangies last two nitessss at town city
sorry sorry and sorry for not stopping by to say hello cz the place was kinda busy and crowded~
enjoy the times~

oh ya~and i am quite happy with my mid year marks~
although i didn't really reach my target...hmmm....
but i think i will try really hard in trial~!

gotta take an afternoon nap now~chaos
thanks ya my friends and xiaobaby~
u all make my life wonderful or maybe miserable sometimes=.=''

keke~my cute little doggie~~~~~his name is silky~he is also my 2nd accompanion
accompanies me when i am sad and sit on me when i am down~isn't he just adorable??
yea~~it's a he???keke~my boy accompanion~:)sori for uploading this picta~took it yesterday...he's kinda messy though:)haven take his bath yet~

before go bora~for lcds meeting regarding the summer camp~

playing dead**

trying hard to enjoy my last few days of holidays!
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~!
days to enjoy>.<
before i start my hard busy life to spm trial~

p/s:xiaobabyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy~miss you!but i still think it needs time~
trust me

InSeCuRe~~~~~~~~

i am not really sure whether things had went back to it's normal way~
how it used to be
kinda confused~
cz i feel insecure

every human do mistakes~
xiaobaby asked me sincerely to forgive him for everything~
and i'm kinda shocked.............he actually called me for more than an hour at nite~
he never do that before~i mean___________he suddenly bcame some1 to care about me so much~so much that i can never imagine~
just to make me feel better~
make me forgive him~
make everything go back to normal~
shall i?????

i am just afraid our relationship just can't go back to normal anymore~
things cant be fixed to how it used to be anymore last time~

i got really S-H-O-C-K-E-D.....
wen i got to know that there r so many of my friends to support me and also my relationship with him~
all along___________i thought nobody ever want us to be together~
maybe we're not really a good match~

chung chung.........
thanks ya~for being a great friend and drop a call~
u're such a great friend~thank u thank u thank u~!
and other other friends nah~~~~~~~~~for being supportive

i had been too sad and emo for too long_______________
and since i'm not really sick today~
i am gonna have fun and enjoy the girl's dat out with my sister~
i love my friends_______________________
xiaobaby,i love u too~~let time decides.....

ThE + EnD = w0rSe tHiNg eVeR???:(

_____the 25th day u'd left______
i was just about to rest my sick little eyes~
and god...................i just realize that i had already lost the most important person in my life~
someone that actually gave me a lot of experiences~
person that really changed me~
person that can actually made me do so much for him~
person that i really i need so much~

love begins with a smile,grows with a kiss and last endss with a teardrop(maybe more than 1)

it took so long of both of our time to build up this little tree of love that we both had ever own~
we both appreciated~
and sometimes....i began to forget watering the little tree of love~
and soon he also started to forget watering this tree of love~
love in our relationship starts so fade~
everything were not like it used to be anymore~
_______everything's empty________

sometimes i was thinking to myself~
will he ever tell me that he shall find another girl....one that's better than me
with wiser eyes~
softer lips~
and just better~

i never can love any other more~
cz i already failed~
F_A-I-L-E-D
i can't so such simple thing that every girl cn do~
i can't able to maintain such relationship~
i can't able to do everything by myself~
am i that useless??

as long my life stands right here~
i would never love another~
none other guys can take over this place of yours~
none other guys can give me that feelings that u gave~
none other guys can make me fall so deeply into love~

N-O-N-E >.<
why is it hav to be like that??
when he was with me.......i never though of all this
and when he started to leave me...........then i realize~~~~~~~
all the good things he ever done to me~
i rmb he told me that even 1day we both got seperated and not in contact anymore.
he'll still find me no matter what~

and i still rmb that u told me before that more nails will be poked into ur heart when our relationship starts to grow~
it's been 2 years and a half now...............time flies~
thousands and thousands of nails is poked into my heart~
and now T.T

we aren't meant for each other??

maybe we actually lived in two diff worlds all along~
he is the type of person that is always busy with his stuff that eventually he'll forget me~
he'll never text or call me~
i am the type that is gonna wait for his text and call got the whole day even though how busy and pack my schedule is~

he took me to see the world~
took me to places that i'd never been~
teach me things that i had never knew before~
made me a much more mature person~
he let me and my pair of eyes to discover what's true love~

but this true love can never last anymore~

what will happen to the days without him??

dear xiaobaby~
we both gave each other unconditional love and uncountable effort~
u're gonna stay right in my heart forever and ever~not leaving even for a second~
nothing's gonna change my mind bout u~
u made me laugh,smile and cry the most~
thank you for all the love that u poured,money that u had spent,energy that u had put onto our relationship~
just move on with ur new life and start studying and make good career of ur own~
u'll just hav to "yang" other girls nex time~
i failed....................to give u........................everything...............everything that guys ever needed
i failed as a girl..................................................
u broke ur promise~u're not gonna go through my bday and spm this year T.T
but it's okay~
i forgive you~
because i don't deserve it~
good luck~!even if 1day u got any problems....u still can count on me
you'll still have my heart..until the end of time~that's the only thing i can do for you~
i would treasure all the moments~when we're together~:(
pai pai:(

**go on and take a bow**

don't tell me u're sorry cz u're not~
but u put on quite a show~
really had me going like crazy for you~
now it's time to go~
it's really over now~
every things over now~

girl,i love u you're the one~
p-l-e-a-s-e..........just cut that out~

u don't know how much it hurts to me~
how much it makes me wonder~
how much it made me had mental sufferings~
how painful this sensation is to me~
i guees i need just S-T-O-P doing things or putting effort on u~
i feel so unloveable that maybe punishing myself will accomlish this
is this kinda mental suffering??
don't regret it if u really see me one day in the mental hospital craving for love~

there were times that u will really look into my eyes and that really let me now that u really love me~
and there were also times that u act like u don't wanna care~
there were times that u were actually looking at other girls and u tell me u didn't~
there were times that u were really lovely to me~
there were times that u don't even love me~
there were many many times that u made me confused...............
what's all this??

it's true when people said that love is so important in life that anyone doesn't want to lose it~
but it's the truth that u really gotta let it go when u actually realize that the another pasrt of ur life didn't need u anymore~
life still needs to go on~

love does also reveals all the truth~
when it's sweet,everything in your world would be really colourful~
but when it hurts,it just cuts way deep into ur heart~the most painful thing ever!

it's really hard to love a person~
to give to sacrifice~
to everything~~~~~~~T.T T.T

i can do whatever u want me to~
but to know that i really meant nth??
everything's gone~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

i don't wanna giv a shit***************>.<

there were times that i don't really know~
should i laugh hard??
should i cry hard??
should i scold hard??
or should i just do nothing and make that damn blur face pretending i didn't noe??

if you never meant whatever u said............why u even bother????
if you noe u're gonna break it.................why promise??
if you have no sense of trying........why boast??
if you could have done shit worse..............why now??
if you noe it hurts...................why again???


there were times that my heart really don't understand what were u and ur heart thinking actually??can i just an incredible gadget to detect what is in your mind actually??
i though u were diff~but guess what.......................i noe now___

I A-M T-O-T-A-L-L-Y W-R-O-N-G

times when u were gone....everything seems to change..changed dark and sorrow...
all the path that i take and pass............is just colourless and meaningless i shall say
things were not like it used to be anymore...
everything~

shall i just regret??
regret that i bloody proposed to you??
that i push away what people thought about me??
what people misunderstood about me??
what people misunderstood about our relationship??

how i wish that i could actually share this sad thing with someone that i can really really trust~
but too bad~!the only damn person that i can ever trust is you~
since the first day i ever noe u~
me with my freaking thick face proposing to you~
sacrificing my dignity.......as a girl~
sacrificing myself~~~being damn thick face~~~~
just to tell the whole world how much do you actually meant to me~~~how much u were in me~
how much i actually love u~~

can i still trust u now??
can i still tell every single thing to u now??
can i still do the same like i do last time??
past is always the past...some things that are already fade can't be found back anymore~
will this gonna happen to us??
human sometimes need to let go~
and i think maybe that's what i should do now~
maybe it's time for me to really really let go~

is it guys are all the same..................cannot be trusted??
is it guys are all the same..................do not noe how to care about girl's feelings??
is it guys are all the same.......................love damn bitches??
is it guys are all the same...............with their freaking horny damn attitude??
sometimes i feel like laughing hard...i would just rather turn to be a lesbian instead~
really really feel like laughing hard eventually i'll get tired and won't give two f***ks about telling u if'ssssssss and why'sssssssssssssssssss

beyond speechless

beyond dissapoinment


there were times that i feel sad and mad too~
not only u~
i was never wrong about you,i trusted you______________this shows how much i can be wrong about u as well~


and believe me~
i was even close to say how could you

because i don't even feel sad for you
i feel sorry for myself
for us
for so many times that i actually do so damn much for you you and you

remember once u told me it's forever??
remember once u cried so badly cz of me??
i get it now~u just know how to hit the spot at the right places~
i'm just too dumb and stupid~
let me warn you now~
listen to that properly~
damn properly~
that might be a great news to you~
it's not too late to back up right now and go for other damn bitches that u feel could do better than me~

I D-O N-O-T W-A-N-T-O G-I-V-E A S-H-I-T B-O-U-T Y-O-U