cRazY??

i'm asking myself
am i kinda having hysteria o wat??
yesterday i was really sick in school but i told myself that i can
i could just stay in school and pay full attention then i don't need to kinda re-revise again at home
when the clock strike 12p.m
ohhhh~missie sook yee couldn't stand anymore
my head just went down and i slept on the table
all the way till school's over

went back home
damn hungry!:(
u don't like it when i am hungry
haha~sook yee get mad when she's hungry
i didn't eat anything since 6 in the morning till 2
reached home about 2.30
raining cats and dogs the moment i stepped in the door~
ran ran ran all the way to the balcony to take back the clothes
sook yee's all wettttttttttttttttttttttttt!in her pinafore
my hair's all wet...my pinafore??worseeeeee
i'm like one of the tsunami victims~yet..i never bother to dry up myself
**hopeless**

done!fuhhhhhhhhhhhh~
i changed and i put my school baggie at the right position
and i went into the kitchen
.....

wat??!
no food??i called my mum and she said she was too busy~
i cried!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
badly~~i feel like i'm really having mental problems now~
i shouted alone in my house
i were just so stresses out~
i don't know why i shouted
i'm like a mad girl...shout shout shout and shout...till neighbour could hear me i think
i am not exaggerating!:( but i really did that..i don't know why
i just couldn't control myself
and i cried like a baby~indeed

am i?am i really having mental problems??
with all the examsssssssssssss and sick and quarreling and struggling to be thin and
u noe what..there's just so many things going on in my life right now~
and i never felt this insane thing in me before~i don't know what's wrong with me
i think i know this little thing in me that's really crazy..i am hyperactive and super talkative at times but if i don't stay moving somehow..i will fall asleep and if i don't keep myself talking..i'll get moodythat's what i know about me...or am i talking crap??tootttttttttt~
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btw~i'm really thankful that i am still alive here
**pats**
chemistry tuition ysterday night was going great
sick but paying damn freaking full atention~

and i didn't go to school today
gave up~
hey sick,i can't fight u u bloody sick...stop torturing me:(

i'm thinking of him again
I'm thinking of him again..i miss everything of him,every moment with him
he just like a drug to me, he makes me feel good ,initially ,but after the effect wears off, i feel bad afterwards
But i just can't help myself
I'm so lonely and unhappy nowadays
i just want to feel love again
And he was the only guy who ever made me feel special..
I know i’ve shouldn’t have watched love dramas

it reminds me of him, miss those days together ,whenever i travel to his place, he will definitely bring me happiness,we joked ,we laughed and lots more
I miss him
I miss his baby scent
I miss his hair
I miss his skin
I miss his lips
I miss his hands
I miss the way he would look at me
I miss the times he would tell me how beautiful I looked or how great I looked
I miss the way he touched my hand
I miss the way he hug me tight
I missed his wet kisses on my lips..
but still~you would never tell me everything
you would never feel bad when we quarrel
you would never think of me
i know i hate you~but i still love u..aiz


arghh!! I’m out of my mind
I am so incredibly lonely
Words cannot even begin to describe how lonely I am
I was listening"bye bye" in bed and thinking about how lonely I am
And I’m starting to question why I don’t have someone special with me
I have no one to hug
I have no one to kiss
I have no one to hold
I want that more than anything
I want that so much that it’s starting to really hurt….


i am D-E-P-R-E-S-S-E-D