ThE + EnD = w0rSe tHiNg eVeR???:(

_____the 25th day u'd left______
i was just about to rest my sick little eyes~
and god...................i just realize that i had already lost the most important person in my life~
someone that actually gave me a lot of experiences~
person that really changed me~
person that can actually made me do so much for him~
person that i really i need so much~

love begins with a smile,grows with a kiss and last endss with a teardrop(maybe more than 1)

it took so long of both of our time to build up this little tree of love that we both had ever own~
we both appreciated~
and sometimes....i began to forget watering the little tree of love~
and soon he also started to forget watering this tree of love~
love in our relationship starts so fade~
everything were not like it used to be anymore~
_______everything's empty________

sometimes i was thinking to myself~
will he ever tell me that he shall find another girl....one that's better than me
with wiser eyes~
softer lips~
and just better~

i never can love any other more~
cz i already failed~
F_A-I-L-E-D
i can't so such simple thing that every girl cn do~
i can't able to maintain such relationship~
i can't able to do everything by myself~
am i that useless??

as long my life stands right here~
i would never love another~
none other guys can take over this place of yours~
none other guys can give me that feelings that u gave~
none other guys can make me fall so deeply into love~

N-O-N-E >.<
why is it hav to be like that??
when he was with me.......i never though of all this
and when he started to leave me...........then i realize~~~~~~~
all the good things he ever done to me~
i rmb he told me that even 1day we both got seperated and not in contact anymore.
he'll still find me no matter what~

and i still rmb that u told me before that more nails will be poked into ur heart when our relationship starts to grow~
it's been 2 years and a half now...............time flies~
thousands and thousands of nails is poked into my heart~
and now T.T

we aren't meant for each other??

maybe we actually lived in two diff worlds all along~
he is the type of person that is always busy with his stuff that eventually he'll forget me~
he'll never text or call me~
i am the type that is gonna wait for his text and call got the whole day even though how busy and pack my schedule is~

he took me to see the world~
took me to places that i'd never been~
teach me things that i had never knew before~
made me a much more mature person~
he let me and my pair of eyes to discover what's true love~

but this true love can never last anymore~

what will happen to the days without him??

dear xiaobaby~
we both gave each other unconditional love and uncountable effort~
u're gonna stay right in my heart forever and ever~not leaving even for a second~
nothing's gonna change my mind bout u~
u made me laugh,smile and cry the most~
thank you for all the love that u poured,money that u had spent,energy that u had put onto our relationship~
just move on with ur new life and start studying and make good career of ur own~
u'll just hav to "yang" other girls nex time~
i failed....................to give u........................everything...............everything that guys ever needed
i failed as a girl..................................................
u broke ur promise~u're not gonna go through my bday and spm this year T.T
but it's okay~
i forgive you~
because i don't deserve it~
good luck~!even if 1day u got any problems....u still can count on me
you'll still have my heart..until the end of time~that's the only thing i can do for you~
i would treasure all the moments~when we're together~:(
pai pai:(