lazy lazeeeeeeeeee bump~~~~~~~~~~~

since my big sister is home~
quite lazeeeee to blog dy:)
cz i am enjoying the fun and heat at home~^^
there's just something missing here
i miss my xiaobaby so so much~
gotta wait till end of august-.-
that's gonna be long~
looking forward to meet him and get his kiss and hug!
>.<

tuiton tuition tuition during the holidays~
all these really killing my time to enjoy the holidays~
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~!>.<
no plans got a lot worries and last but not least~not even a great holiday for me~

jealous________

pretty right????????her namie is kim kardashian in case some ppl don't know:)

EaRtHqUaKe cAme bAcK~!!:)

hmmm....
today.........is not really my good day and also plus my good day~
good day cz my sis-earthquake came back to rock the house~
the house really just went upside down though~
with all her stupid stuff from her condo that's piled up in my little small neat room~
her weeks of laundry,her blankie,her make up make up stuff,her accecories..everything nah can be said~packed up in my house~

though______________not really happy also cz
**the big boss in my life already merajuk with me........if u couldn't guess it rite then it's my xiaobaby noh...i am so so so so sorrrrryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy>.<
**my mummy cook so many food cz my sis came back and everyone in my family gonna start gaining weight again-__-
**suddenly remembered of xiaobaby...he didn't have any break until 25th of august
hello~it's 25th of august....man that's long way to go~
aiz~
aiz~
aiz~
i think i am not gonna upload any pictasssss dy nah~
this usb cable is killing me>.<

When you have to look away
When you dont have much to say
Thats when I love you
I love you, just that way
To hear you stumble when you speak
Or see you walk with two left feet
Thats when I love you
I love you, endlessly
And when your mad cuz you lost a game
Forget Im waiting in the rain
Baby i love you,I love you anyway
Heres my promise made tonight
You can count "on" me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,When I love you no matter what
So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie it made you cry
Thats when I love you
I love you a little more each time
And when you cant quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
Thats when I love you
I love you, more than youll know
And when you forget that we had a date
Or that look that you get when you show up late
Baby I love you, I love you anyway
Heres my promise made tonight
You can count "on" me for life
Thats when i love you
When nothing you do can change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,When I love you no matter what
Thats when I love you
When nothing babyNothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn, The more I love
The more my heart cant get enough
Thats when I love you,When I love you no matter what
No matter what

meaningful right~~??my bloggie song~
it suits my mood though:)
precious moments are forever............................................................................................................
neverending~

FreaKing litTle doCt0r****

just now when evening about 3.30 p.m. went to see the freaking skin specialist~
cz of my freaking stupid skin that start to betray me~
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh~~~-_______________-

my daddy brought me there...
wanna noe y??
cz PEOPLE said that the freaking little doctor is quite ham sap(which means miang)
or..................shall i describe that as horny???

i waited waited at the counter for about 10 minutes..

wonderinggggggggggggg~~~how he would look like????

is he gonna be like...hmmmmmmm....beardy??or with moustache??
or is he gonna stare at my boobs when talking to me??
or rub my hands when checking my skin??
kinda nervous~~like when i was a kid in the dentist clinic:)


and at last!!my name is called~~
i ask my daddy to walk in front of me and accompany me all the way
(scare scare that the doctor will really look horny):p

Taaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa Daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~
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thank god....hmm...the doctor looked okay though:) he is a plum and short malay man~
no beard.....no moustache......he dress really smartly..not that scary and dirty rite??^^
but one thing.................................................................................

when i step into the office~i smell something very stinky..its something like armpit smell:p
sorry ya doctor sulaiman:)
i am not really sure whether the smell actually came from him...........or is it his office is really that stinky stinky___

and he checked my skin(he didn't rub my hands or anythin like a horny guy)

den he began to beleberrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr~~~~~~~~~~
nag nag nag nag nag nag____________________
bla bla bla bla___________________

i see this freaking little shortieeee doctor and he said that i got a freaking stupid skin disease which freaking called "discoid ezhema"did i spelled it freaking right??:)

he freaking nag at me like hell____HELLLLLLLLLLLLL****

he freaking wants me to follow all his advice and he freaking promoting all his medicine
he spoke freaking english mix malay which freaking means rojak

and he freaking show off about his past experiencessssss.......

and last but not least.....he freaking stinksssssssssssssssssss~!

i still gotta look at him into his eyes and concentrate to every single thing he is saying though
cz u wanna noe y??hello~~~~~~~~~i paid for it kay**and it's apart of manners:)since i am an innocent little girl^.^

and then bla bla bla...................................freaking finished his speech
went to the freaking medicine counter and wait for the freaking medicine
then the freaking asistant called my name and hand me all the freaking medicine

got freaking cream..freaking soap....freaking tablets...freaking capsules...


concentrate~i am about to announce the price

Rm 250!!


walauwei!!!!!!!!!wat the ****??

what a freaking price!!!!!!!!!!


it's just a really freaking day for me-____________-"

feel sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet~!!!

yesterday night just right before i went to bed~i suddenly tot of taking out all the letters that xiaobaby had given to me
i kept it in a box~all those letters or just little notes that he had given to mi actually took the effort to go to my drawer and took out all the stuff(just to take out the box)
cz i put it underneath~down down under~it's like hunting for treasure huh??


it is a box of treasure though~treasure that can't be found anywhere.....
i opened the cute cute little boxie and took out all the letters
one of them is where he wrote me a hundred of his wishes~


read read read~till i felt sleepi~


it feels just soooooooo sweeeeeeeeeeeeet~!:)

a picture paints a thousand wordssssssss~

omg~!what a picture~it was taken when last year's summer camp to pulau perhentian<3

(i think we both did grow up and changed a lot now~including me of course~!!^^)all of us need to grow continously in our lives...we are still young and have a long long way to go~and when i mean all,i meant ALL OF USSSSSSSSS~:p

a little scoop on some of his letters~

just apart though~i guess some other letters just keep it to myself:)

i hereby introduce to all the babes and dudes________________________

to my cute little pinky companion~it's name is cutie!!who always accompany me when i am sad.when i am very happy,when i am sleeping,when i am doing my revision,when i am.........everything~! xiaobaby gave it to me~i really really love it~its not that common and its pink~!diff from others

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and i saw one of these when i am rummging my drawer~the photo album

my cousin brother's wedding held in march~

in case if u haven't see my mum before~

there's she...right beside me..she loves my sister more though~

and................i had totally forgotten about grandpa jimmy's party~don't mention~

everything______EVERTHING!!went upside down~

kids kids kids~~ish ish ish~~

this is the cake me,syeh ren,sapna and bla bla bla bought for grandpa jimmy~original blueberry cake...expensive wei~although its small~it costs us more than rm40~pok kai ler~

and this is the group photo of all the gangies~~~the other day when we were celebrating lau(the turtle)'s bday party~me showing my bunny teeth~lolzzzzzzz

**unfair life of mine**

sometimes i just could't get it~
does life need to be so so unfair??
or is it just me that is unlucky to have all this happening to me~

this is the conversation between my mummy and my sister last night~
mummy:are u feeling alright today??is ur diarrhea okay ady??wat u had for ur dinner??
sister :no,i am now outside with my friends going to hav my dinner...i am fine..
mummy:wat??u are outside??cold or not??did u put any sweater on??is ur tummy really feeling
okay??
sister:ya
mummy:okay,better take care ya..make sure you don't eat the oily food and don't get cold ya

this is the conversation between me and my mummy last week(when i am having my exam)
me :mummy,i just came back from school..you don't need to buy any lunch for my dy..my
tummy is not really feeling very weel cz i had diarrhea in school today..just right b4
the exam that stupid diarrhea came..now no apetite wanna eat..
mummy:wat u mean u diarrhea??!then u ma cannot do your exam lo???!why suddenly can got
diarrhea??!
me :i also dont know...maybe its the dinner yesterday that made me like that..i can do
my exam..but biology was really hard..i just try~
mummy:yesterday's food was fine..i ate also nothing happened to me??or u go and drink the
weight loss tea at home yesterday??tell me properly!!
me :no!i didnt even touch it!
mummy:i am asking u nicely again..yes or no???
me :no!

then i just hang up like that~

can see the diff??how am i being treated??to be compared with my sis??
i love my mum~
and i always try to get the best grades and results for her though
prove>>>i always get good grades in monthly exams
upsr:straight a's
pmr:straight a's
spm coming soon~(i am going to try hard to get straight a's though)

______and sometimes she would call me stupid~ isnt that just unfair??

isnt life just unfair??
i felt so abandoned although i am surrounded by friends,family all around me

i still feel lonely~:(

swallon eyes day-.-

today is my swallon eyes day~

which literally meant an ugleeeeeeeeeeeee day~~~~~~~

which obviously meant that i didn't get to go to school's extra class today(because i didn't want anybody to see this hprrible granny's face)-______________-

woke up early in the morning at about 6.30(school's at 8a.m)...so bersemangat go to school
so the moment i opened my little eyes that was crying really badly last night~
i felt smth was wrong and when i looked at the mirror,i saw a really horrible face

but i thought my eyes will go back to normal after i bath and get everything done
half way when i was bathing~~~i looke at the mirror~~and yet that damn mirror still show my ugleeeeeeee horrible face
i felt so damn geram~~and then i jz cry in front de mirror

(haven wash body yet,only hair)
den i quickly dry up myself,wear back my same old cute pjamas~

and guess what________i went back to sleep with my wet wet hair that i just don't giv a damn about it..before that i called xiaobaby and told him about my swallon eyes
indireactly i gotta "thank him" for those swallon pair of eyes~

hate hate hate my ugleeeeeeeeee day~~

not going anywhere today~
wont even go 1step ahead from my house~~

alien face-.-

did i just heard the wrong thing??
i was crying so badly~almost like the world already ended for me
i smsed you-you said you were busy
waited waited and waited waited for so long~didn't even had my dinner and medicine

and wen i received ur call
u said that u were busy all along in the cinema??????cinema??watching movie??
where are you???where you went????where the baby that used to care so much bout me went??where???????????????????
i just want u back T.T
if things could just remain how it used to be~T.T
u would never ask me things like u used to anymore~
i miss you~:(
everything in our relationship seems...............blur
love blur............everything~
do you know that i am waiting for you??
do you know how hard it is????????
do you know the feelings??????????

the story of my love~

it was the first day of school when all of that happened...i found that I fell in love with him.I took a step and confessed my love for him. i just couldn't blive that i am actually so daring to do that. And soon,we actually hooked up together and things started to improve in our relationship~



to be compared with any other guys,he was diff..very diff
he leads me to the right path and take me to where i should be
never i had seen any guys like him..never..he was special....perfect..great..my dream guy
i always concentrated on him only~mayb by his side there were so so many girls

at that moment,our relationship haven gone that far yet


things got much better after some time though. to me,he was the only one in my eyes.
to him??maybe i was just another girl
sometimes i really don't understand him though. he can act like he just don't care and sometimes he really love me and care about me so much(like really much)
he would help me to wipe off my tears even if he saw a single tear coming out my eyes
he would call me in the middle of the night and tell me that he really loves me
he would do anything to make me happy
he would always be at my side everytime every minute and every second
when we quarrel,he would be the first to apologise
everything he do just to please me
the true reason that i really know what is the meaning of love is cz of you
u came into my life and showed me what true love really is~


one day,when i got up in the morning...i stranded myself in the room,waiting for his call..but lunch passed,dinner passed and soon the sky was dark..he still didn't call
it was already tiring to look at the phone anymore
i am desperate to hear just three words from him just'i love you' will mean so much to me
just to know where he is and what he is doing is already enough for me
and when he called me,we started to quarrel again~

that night things happen and i got to know about his true heart~he spitted everything out
then i realize-Why didn’t I realize that….That his heart was always by my side, protecting me. Why didn’t I realize that he love me this much that no other girl can feel this affection~


since we were together,i never ask much from him
i changed a lot since i fell in love and hooked up with me
Some people come into our lives, leave footprints on our hearts, and we are never the same.
and i am one of the people~i am never the same,i learn to give more
love,care,things to share,everything~
he was everything to me~i don't expect him to pay for all my expenses and waste much of his energy and money for me though
i just wanted a true heart..a true inner heart


sometimes i felt that myb he is not the right guy for me..many other girls would die for him
sometimes when we quarrel really badly,i am really pissed and strand myself in the room crying and crying non stop
i couldn't help hating him~and thats the reason i am the one who always call him again and act like nothing happen and apologise to him



if u were to ask me what if 1day i lose him~
i would say my life is meaningless since then
although sometimes i hated him
he is still the best for me
last time, now and forever
nothings gonna change
mayb i am gonna love him more from day to day



i only want him to love me until his last minute and hope that i can hear just 3 little words everyday till i die~T.T for that, and for that reason it became courage.........to live my beautiful life when all problems that i am facing is stopping me T.T

once and for all~
he is the one~



he is the one wearing de black vest

~always supporting me through my ups and downs

will he stop doing that today??T.T

i love u forever~the saddest thing in the world is to know that u meant so much to me but i mean nth to u~nothing can ever explain how much and what u mean to me~never T.T

some of us think that holding onto a love making us strong~staying in that love making us strong but sometimes it's best to let go..even if u don't want to,when the time comes u had to let it go even how hard it is going to be~maybe we're trying too hard~maybe we're already torn apart and nth can be fixed anymore~it's empty

If I could reach up and hold a star for every time you've made me smile, the entire evening sky would be in the palm of my hand...u are the oni one who can really make me smile~ and yet you are the one to make me cry the most~

-.-

just came back from jimmy boy's party and it was really crazy
everyone was splashing cakes all around the face..thank god i tak kena lu~keke~^^

den i went to ren ren's house go revise some addmaths and also bio(the sub that i hate the most)
and then play play with her cousin which is a very very cute and adorable baby^^
omg~how i wish i hav 1 at homie~

just repolish my new nails with pink pink since it's already holidays~!!
i need to go to school tmr though cz got stupid extra class
what to do~just go noh~hope no teachers os gonna scold me for my pinky nails:)

i just wanna noe-do live really need to get so miserable sometimes???i am just curious~
aiz~mayb i shouldn't have just propose to him,shouldn't have let him noe that i really so so love him that time

den now mayb he will be wth some beeter girls..who??don;t ask me who,just humans who is better looking than me~

i don't really blieve in guys don't love pretty girls actually~
which indirectly meant that i still don't blieve till today that HE actually did love n sayang me so so muchieeeeeeeeee~!that's why i try so so hard to diet,lose weight and all that just to make him happy~to make him feel that i am the best for him though~:(

this is the first time ever that i am trying to do so hard and put so many things for a guy~
and i really feel proud that i had already gave my best and i am gonna do that forever and ever~
till that my body is unable to function anymore

i really got a lot question marks in my mind~
aiz~
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who can help me??????????????????????????????

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happy burp day~!

happy belated birthday to my grandpa-jimmy~!don't really understand why is he taking that kinda pictasss-as he said he is a type of guy that don't know how to do "yeng"lolzzz~grandpa grandpa~:p

he is my lovely little classmate-wait wait-.-did i just say little??hahaXD he is my big size but not fat classmate^^that sits behind me(always buat lawok xjadi)keke~

his bday is actually yesterday(thank god i rmb bout that before yesterday's midnight)!and i still manage to wish him a very happy birthday~he is doing his party today though~jz go makan makan makan~

more bout his party coming!:)

blur blur lu~

okok~let's get serious and get this started~before i introduce myself~
reasons why can this lazy bump actually created this bloggie:
-cz i got really really bored with friendster,facebook,and all internet stuff
-i find it interesting to write ur journey of life and share it with others(if oni got ppl wanna read)
-mayb can practice my essay writing for my spm^^
-and many many more nah~

is it actually a waste of time writing a blog???mayb not~it's really interesting when u can get to keep in touch with your friends and get to know what are they doing lately and i love seeind pictures(but i think i will get to upload very very little pics cz i hate taking pics XD