xiaobaby and studies**f0cussss**

**yesterday**
it was a really depressing day for me...i just couldn't think ,couldn't function well, my mind is just full of everything...
let me count..............................trial in on august
time just flies so damn fast that it's already the end of june now
i have only about a month to strive for my trial
to work really really hard
to give one last shot for everything
**A MONTH**
i can't afford to get lazy anymore...or else.....there'll be no 2nd chance for me

a month=31days
10 subjects
history= 17 chaptersssssssss
biology=14chapterssssssssss
addmaths-exercises everyday
and bla bla bla~
i had so many things to work on
aiz....xiaobaby,can pls don't quarrel with me anymore??
i really beg u pls
i really need to get into government places after spm
or else i have no where to go anymore~damn it>.<

mummy said:u better try your very best to get good result and go into local u
i can't afford to pay for your further studies anymore
me :but............why u help sis to pay so much every single sem she took~!
she didn't even bother about spm or took any effort to achieve good results in it..
and now she's having fun!everyday!but y??y me?y must i achieve good result?
mummy :your sister is kinda slow....couldn't blame her also...but u r diff...u can do it....
so that's y.......counting on u...if u didn't study properly....go work only la...no money
want to help u dy

that's what~
life~
is always unfair i can say~
i really gotta study really hard~
just a few months more and i would be free~!free free and free!F-R-E-E

what i hope now is just that i can peacefully go on with my studies and xiaobaby in my life
that's the two things in my mind now~
nth else
i hust hope that u will be at my side and support me~
until that moment when i feel like giving up....u will hold me
and encourage me
and be the only one with me
that's all
i don't expect to just quarrel with u every single day
i don't wanna make myself hate to sms or call u everyday
pls..................be the one who i really need not wanna ignore or get far from
be the one i would thank if i get great results
be the one in my life and EVERYTHING:(
pls................for once i beg u again and again
pls
i don't wanna lose my life
i don't wanna lose my studies opportunity
i don't wanna lose to my daddy and mummy
i don't want~T.T

before go to school~~~~~~~~

can c??even my face so depressing