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i only hope for a thing...just to be happy for just a day..just a few hours to make me really smile from my true heart....i had never been happy since u were there..maybe u will just blame on me again and said that i dont trust you...you would never imagine how much i trust...i could just not believe and say NO when the world is actually pointing fingers at you..i would tel them on the face that you are not that kind of person...because i know...but all along you were keeping things from me...you wouldn't tell..even the whole world and i would be the fool, not knowing anything about you...who am i??who am i in your heart??did you really ask yourself??do you really really just ask your heart silently??ask properly...is this what u want??

i don't think so..my mind is so so so sooooooo frust now...i cant tahan...i am gonna a psycho anytime...T.T i couldn't stand all this..i am just a normal human being that wants a normal life with a normal love and normal care..all along i don't expect much from you..i don't need your money or any gift or ask anything specific from you...i just want you and YOUR TRUE LITTLE HEART...that would be enough for me...my days here are really bad..every single day passed WITH TEARS..never a day i live without my tears
sometimes being tease...bullied...which they think is actually funny but it's not..the pain that i am going through every single month...being tortured by those pain...why don't you understand??why don't you be the good one to let me go??out of this quarrel??
i think we got no more faith anymore...things are getting worse.....from the best to good then good to bad then bad to worse...now...is the worst moment in my life i had ever go through...it's like i am everyday in hell....

maybe you said i change...i just want little things from you...just stop arguing with me for just a moment for just a minute u keep quiet and listen to amm my problems...i had not say this out from my heart...i fell so suffering with my heart that's full of so many things...i want u to be the person that shares everything with me...shares all my sad moments...but you are not the one anymore...you are not T.Twhat we do is just quarrel quarrel and quarrel everyday....i smiled when i see your sleeping because it's been a long you had never been close to me..really really close to me...we are so far apart now..really far...T.T i can feel that distance...i am just really sad

when i cried last time...you would pamper me like baby..help me to wipe off my tearss..and really tell me not to cry...when i said things to you..you would silently listen to me..really look in my eyes and really listen to me...T.T when i had really bad moments you are the one to be at my side...
that was last time...
things had really changed between us...
T.T
i am really suffering with you....
i am....
and i am....
i don't know what to do
who can show me the right path??who can tell me??who can share with me??who can always be there for me??

i had so many damn problems going on in school..taking underneath my skirt videos...i couldn't trust people around me everyday in school...i got noone to trust noone to tell noone to count on T.T i wouldn't you change T.T because i know you didn't..deep down in your heart there's still the true you~
T.T i never thought we would be like that....T.T at this kind of stage...that already can't be help...just let me go T.T
i really feel like commiting suicide now..
repeating what i used to do last time
T.T
i couldn't think like a normal person now.....T.T