you will always have me baby:)

alrightt, let me just recall. xiaobaby came back last week during the rayasssss season. and i had sorta a huge fight with this so called "lousy" boyfriend **rolling eyes** was so darn pissed off with him so much tht i couldn't get to sleep. i was not thinking bout anything tht time but to strangle him. ish~! #$@*& i was thinking what kinda boyfriend i had?? a lousy one indeed

Tears did streamed down and my pillow it's all wet. **ngek** am really dissapointed to be exact. because there's nothing i can do to make things better between me and my so called lousy boyfriend here wasn't even helping at tht time. Instead, he was making things worse by assuming tht i had changed all along =.=


we used to argue because he was keeping everything to himself. now tht i realised tht the problem is in me. because when now tht he tells me all his problem or anything and my respond would be like 'I DUNNO' or SIGH or WTH. and there it started all the arguements and quarrelssss. maybe i was kinda harsh tht i left him all alone when he was really sick. he still comes back to meet me although he's sick and tired and =.= am assuming tht he's not really romantic. fine. (not really a very big deal eh) But there's not even once tht he come and pujuk me when i was really upset at him. it's like i am going through all this shit all by myself. i was already crying on the other line and all you have in your mind is yout stupid beauty sleep. you didn't even notice i was crying like mad thereand hung up on me. it happened gazillion times already.

and now. here am i sitting at my study table and thinking. it was actually my fault. am not at his side when he's sick, tell him words tht really hurt each other, being really selfish and all i was thinking was me me me and only me. ugh, am sorry baby. miss you~ i wouldnt say much about how darn bad i feel now. and youknowyouloveme. and of course you know. how sorry i feel now.
i missed times when i did some facial for you and you were laying down on my lap, watching tv together with huggies, chat all the way through like nobody's business and god, i felt really happy for tht whole day we both were blessed with lots and lots of love.

ugh :s i miss shopping and i miss you and i miss bitchy sis and cousis

there's so many things i miss now

but it's not the same anymore

i had to tahan

Omg can die woiii

ish~!

i really love him

xoxo,

lovey lovey sook yee